Have you ever been so full of ambition....

Have you ever felt so full of ambition, so right, so hopeful and 'bright'? It all started when I woke up this morning dazed and fogged. It took a gallon of coffee to get me to open my eyes enough to check my face book messages. To my utter surprise a long cherished relative had finally responded to my email.

Instantly I understood that at times feeling blue is not what reality is no matter what and how it feels So many things are in the works and are hidden from a normal everyday consciousness but for sure you already knew that.

The problem is that the past does repeat itself but not always. How the heck am I to know that yesterday blues are a thing of the past, a pain erased or an experience gone?

May be there is no resolution to some blue memories and most often than not blue memories are little programs set to run on cue when things go wrong and do not happen as one expects it to.

As a computer programmer from way back in time before Bill Gate ever, I am in fever. I must catch up with all the changes. Due to the dental assault I did not use or owned a computer until three years ago. I suffer from read and write issues which developed as the dental damages took place.

I have to get help and in order to do so I published Be Afraid of a Dentist Be Afraid but by now I must market it for a penny a day. That is to say that I am flat broke.

As a computer programmer I became thirsty for the knowledge of doing it myself and I mean marketing my own work from scratch.

I stumbled upon some freeware and I intend to design my own web site from scratch, write about it and market the company until I earn the full version for 'free'.

Its like that, when the communication lines are clear and bright, desire becomes the power of the soul to win rather than loose to the will of the hidden blues.

Today I am a hero but yesterday I was a fool. Dreams are made of light and the blues are made of ......

I do not know it all but I suspect that the blues are made of errors which happened.

Hay, shower yourself with white light everyday, who knows it may be the force of the guiding light....