No Sleep for the Servant

No Sleep for the servant………………………………

Tonight I lie in bed tossing in turning with my eyes closed, trying to quiet my mind, my heart, my body; Unable to shut down the thoughts.

My mind is saying the logical resolution to the matter at hand; my heart is questioning the results, my body just won’t lay still.

Bickering back and fourth amongst them, the feeling of uncertainty overcomes me; is there nothing I can do to make it stop? My mouth just says …Quiet!..........

I began to say …………………..Ya Allah………. O Allah…..... O Allah…….

The tears filled my eyes as the words and feeling floated off my tongue just as the water flows.

A’outhu  billahi minash-shaytaner  Rajeem, Bismillahir Rahman ir Raheem. Alhamdu lillahi Rabbil Alamin ar Rahman ir Raheem. Malike yawm-id-din, Iyyaka nab u du, wa Iyyaka nasta in. Ihdinas siratal mustaqin Sirat alliathina an amta alaihim. Ghairil maghdubii, Alaihim wa la dallin. Ameen

Bismillah ir Rahman ir Raheem, WaalAAasri Inna alisana lafee khusrin, Illa allatheena amanoo waAAamiloo alssalihatt watawasaw bialhaqqi, watawasaw bialssabri.

Tears of pain streamed down my face, as I asked Allah wa ta’allah to take the weight from my heart and mind.

I said “Ya Allah…….. I place this struggle in your hands. Take this heaviness from my body, Ya Allah……………….. Oh living, Oh Self sustaining, I seek help by your mercy, place all my affairs in order for me and do not entrust me to my self for a blink of an eye.”  The Prophet (pbuh) would say this while making Du’a.

Allah wa ta’allah  heard my plea, I am his servant, and he heard my plea. Allah wa ta’allah  lifted the pain and struggle from my heart and mind. But Allah wa ta’allah said there will be no sleep tonight, you will share your struggle with others. Tonight there is no sleep for the servant.